So I had my eye testing appt..

and it looks like the issues I am having with my vision are likely not related to my optic nerve. That's good. The bad thing is that my poor eyeballs are just wonky. I really need to make an eye appt now. I can't stand this not seeing correctly thing. It's worse than when I got bifocals and had ot learn to see thru them.

I did notice one other noteworthy thing. The left side of my upper back is numb. I needed to scratch. I had just filed my nails so they were pointy. I itched the crap out of myself...with itch relief but I shoudl have hurt myself and I didn't feel it. That's wierd. Not a good wierd.

Driving to the doctor this am I felt kinda good. I got up early got dressed, ate my breakfast, charged my phone and left. I liked driving in traffic, I liked sitting in tunnel traffic. I felt like I had somewhere to be and something to do. That almost sounds insane.

I also went and talked with Zoe today. I really should do that more often. The last time was about 3 months ago. I told her I needed to get back into that habit. She really does help me to think clearly. She said, "you should be a therapist or social worker." She said I have interesting insight and a good, I forget the word, something when it comes to dealing with situations that could be stressful. I said I had to learn to be that way. Unfortunately I have had a lot of practice.

I've started on the wierdness that I have in my head for Meredith's walls. I like the butterflys but not the swirls I added to make it look like they're flying. She likes it. She's 2. What does that say? I also decided to stripe one wall. Stripes are assholes.

She's been messing with the partially finished dollhouse on the kitchen table. I think she wants it to play with. I might make her one to play with sooner than I thought. She might be able to deal with a wooden house that's more fragile than the Little People house she has. Mostly b/c all she does is set the penguins or the other little animals she has in there and make them look out of the windows and talk to each other. It's kinda funny really.

That is all.