Pathetic...

It's been a long long time since I've written anything.

The TTC thing makes me ill. I have some kind of guilt complex thing that is making me want to stay on this med and go let them run tests on me. Fortunately Red said no. He's a smart guy. SO, we have one more cycle I think of Copaxone left and that's it.

I'm trying to figure out which med I need to switch to. Go back to Rebif? Go to Betaseron? I'm wondering if I only needed to be aggressive right after I was diagnosed. If that's not the case then it's back to Rebif. Then again I know someone who was on Betaseron for years, it's been around for YEARS and it's the most tested of all the drugs. Not sure what I'm going to do. I know what Rebif does to me and I know how to manage it. My liver doesn't hate it either.

Christmas is coming sooooon and I'm excited for the Trains! I may not sleep on Christmas Eve. I do have to remember to not push the buttons or play the music on any of the musical things. For sure the small girl will hear it and wake up.

SHe's so funny. She's seen Santa 3 times. 3 different Santas and she's been excited every time. I wonder if that'll confuse her when she's older. She's so cute yelling HIIII SANTAAAA...although the word she uses for Santa doesn't necessarily sound like Santa. Here's one shot from Red's command children's party tonight (she doesn't have on shoes b/c it was at a bounce house place just fyi). They were looking for whatever gift she was going to get. It was a Care Bear, the one with an attitude. I told her "See Meredith it has a bad attitude like Mommy" Some lady laughed at me. Whatever. It's true.