I've been doing some reading

and decided that when the time comes I'm going back on rebif. I'll deal with all the things it does to me b/c they were all better than what copaxone does and it's a more aggressive med. I need to feel like I'm attacking this damn disease. It decided to try to attack me, well hell I can do that right back.

That's my middle of the night, can't sleep although I'm tired wisdom. I'm also going to work out regularly again no matter how I'm feeling and take the provigil from the doctor. I can't feel like this any longer. I can't let everything pile up on my all at once and not fight it off. That's pathetic.

In a few weeks I'll know exactly how my year will go. I hear the jeopardy theme in my head. Can you hear it?