Oh and another thing...

Zoe has suspended our little group of ladies. We meet one more time then no more unless we NEED each other. I think she's doing it because 1 we're wayyyy familiar and 2 two of us never go to see her because we go to the group. We all agreed but I secretly think it's a crappy idea. Guess I'll have to make an appt and let her know.

and did I say this before? The thing about how now I wake up several times a night because my arms are totally asleep? I try to turn over or use them and it wakes me up because they're just there. Not responding. I also am sleeping with my legs flexed. My fricking knees hurt like a beesnitch because of it and I keep getting muscle cramps in my legs. Stupid.

Before I forget...

for like the past 2 weeks I've been having issues controlling my hands. I cut myself when shaving...can't even hold the razor level and it takes 27 years to brush properly because I can't keep a toothbrush level. I also keep dropping stuff. Pretty sure I should call the neuro and report that. I'll get on it. Eventually. Hell at least I'm making note of it.

Things to do...

there's a thing in my brain that I am learning from this book called "It's not all in your head". I keep forgetting that I have permanent damage in my frontal lobe that makes it difficult for me to control my emotions. When I have an issue in my head working something out if I don't ask for help it only gets worse. There are a lot of issues in my head lately. People I've deleted that I had to because they weren't good for me or right for me. People who I need to stop listening to or taking to heart their words. Not everyone should have their opinions heard and it's up to the individual to decide who they should ignore.

I will find my way. Everyone does eventually if they try hard enough for long enough. Everyone does.

Delete.

it's 2012

and I'm starting the year with a clean bill of health...all things considered.

Tysabri is still my friend. I have lost 6 pounds since last month when I was weighed before my infusion. I'm about to have my whole house back. And I am going to craft more.

Welcome 2012. I think we can be friends.